God's Design

My thoughts on a discussion of dealing with the thoughts of having no more children....

I think it's dealing with contentment in one's heart. A year after Bethany was born we decided that it might be best not to have anymore. It was becoming weaning time for her and I knew that I'd be pregnant within two months after. James had already made the decision to have a vasectomy done. I cried for a few days but began looking at the positive. The Lord had blessed us with five and we had the rest of our lives to enjoy together. It would be more time to be with James and nurture our marriage. It would be more time to pull out the crafts and flower garden for fun, keep the house clean all the time and just relax, just BE ---just for a bit. Ahh, yes, I was becoming content in those thoughts so much!
Then the good Lord put health issues in James' life. He had severe back trouble and then severe TMJ that overtook our thoughts and time. Bethany was weaned and we indeed did get pregnant again. I had to once again learn contentment that we were having another baby afterall. It was God's choosing and something we allowed to happen due to our busy-ness. The Lord gave us a girl but she passed away in the womb at almost five months gestation. It took great acceptance and contentment to overcome.
After that we changed to wanting more with great contentment and open arms. We realized what we had just lost and what was eternally made and waiting for us one day. So, through piles of laundry, three meals daily, spills and messes, teaching and hard work I am content....and then dream of the contentment to come as I near the age of no more babies.
It's all a part of life... these cycles that we have. Yes, all of these womanly stages are beautiful in their own way with how God made a perfect design of how life unfolds.