Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Forever in my Heart

Today it's been four years since I had our sweet little girl. I had her with me for 18 short weeks. But she will forever be in my heart. How could you miss one you never really met? How could you picture a fully developed baby in one whose not? How could one hurt still after four whole years? I had many plans for my Martha Joy but God had bigger and more righteous plans. I thank the Lord that we have had one of our own in the presence of God's goodness for four years now. I get sad but then glad at the same time. All I have are pictures, a sweater,hat foot and hand prints. But because of the most important prints of all, I will see my Martha Joy one day. Jesus come quickly!


Cathy said...

Praying for you today my dear friend. I love your strong.
Love you,

Wykate said...

Aww Susan, I understand completely. Sending love and hugs - Kate

Delilah said...

I know how you feel, it is so hard, I lost my Haven Joy after only 16 weeks, but I know someday soon I will see her again.

Crystal said...

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.
"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"
"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."
"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.
"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your childs smile,
With all the other children and say...
'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'
"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth may not
realize you are a Mother
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"